My friend, Carolyn Fehsenfeld, a brilliant painter and teacher, gave me a card with the following Henry James quote. “We work in the dark – we do what we can – we give what we have. Our doubt is our passion and our passion is our task. The rest is the madness of art.”
As I prepare for a week long watercolor workshop with my father and pick away at my series, Last Apartment, I constantly push against a wall of doubts. Will I be able to let go and let the paint lead me? Will I have the courage to paint what I feel? Will I dare try things that might not work?
Each time I face the blank canvas or the page, I wonder if I will find a way to express the passion, hurt, confusion and joy that I feel and want to share with others. Like you, I will never know unless, I dare to work “in the dark” and trust the process.